Two years of prison changed my life, gave me life and awakened the healer within. It was when my freedom was taken away at age 40 that I started discovering the power in “being still.” And what a blessing it was. In the stillness I found my strength, my life, my everything.
After watching 64 men in my barracks for a month I could see they were all sick. One day I looked at them and said to myself “They are all sick, all 64 of them”, and I heard a small voice say, “There is 65 in here! “WOW, that's right!”, I thought, “I'm in here too! What’s wrong with me?” It did not take long to see I was full of false beliefs. As I learned who I was not, who I AM came forth. I had no ideal what I was feeling, what was radiating from me. A 72 year old friend told me I was a healer. I wanted to know why because this was not something I had asked for. He told me he was very happy for me. That was over 8 years ago and since then I have learned a lot and I am here to be the teacher and student. I may not have said a lot but there is a lot in what I said.
Some say I am a Forgiveness Freak and I thank them for the Wonderful comment. I think unforgiveness holds one in the past, and living in the past is dying in the present. You can order my book, Inside Out, from my website.
I think a person may be enlighten when a lady comes up and says, “Young man, you have a beautiful spirit.”
I think you may be enlighten when a lady comes down from the back of an auditorium and says, “I want to tell you God is working in your life in a wonderful way. you keep up what ever you are doing. I have been watching you and you are glowing like a light bulb.”
I think you may be enlighten when a person says, “You don't have to lay hands on me, my pain went away just listening to you talk.”
I believe enlightenment is when your light stays on.That is my goal.
Sure I can be writing or speaking to a group of people and my light will come on, but what makes it go out? That's what I want to learn. I think it is in my actions and reactions, and maybe more reactions than actions. I haven't figured out which is more important, it's sort of like inhaling or exhaling…one is no good without the other.
Could this be a false believe? I hear many say that we all die, that death takes us all. Are people afraid to just say that they will die some day? Why do they have to bring everyone else into the picture? Is it because they think they know everything? They would have to know everything if they know everybody dies or experiences death.
If a person believes that everybody does die, then I don't think they know who they are. For over 40 years I too believed we all die and that's what I was doing. I was dying and it was because I did not know how to live. I accepted I was dying because I was told I would.
Even though most people will agree the bible mentions some did not experience death, they still say they know everybody has to die. Not many people believe we do not have to experience death, and those that do are afraid to mention it to others because they do not want to look stupid. Is it stupid to want to live or want to die? I believe that I will not experience death because I changed my beliefs - or, did I just get my own? Don Childers
Brickey's Prison '98
The Wolf Story (An Extract From Inside Out) by Don Childers
....Once a week or so was movie day at school, and we got to sit in class and watch a movie, which was usually a documentary. I remember one in particular that will always remind me of myself. It was about a man in Spain who raised packs of wolves on his land because they were becoming endangered as a species. The man talked about the history of the wolf and what was causing them to become endangered. One day he witnessed a female having pups and took a newborn pup to raise. He said when wolf pups are born the first thing they smell would always be their “mother.” He took the pup home and raised it on a bottle. After taking care of it and observing it for a year he came to realize that she was not happy, and he thought she needed to be with her own kind. He kept a detailed record of the pup’s pack and knew exactly where her mother and siblings stayed on his land and released her back to them. They did not reject her, but she rejected them because she did not know she was a wolf. The first thing she smelled was a human and that’s what she thought she was. He saw that he could not leave her there and took her back home where she laid down all alone. The man realized that the wolf did not know her true nature and probably would never know it, and he said that he would never do this to another animal again. The first time I saw this documentary I did not see any further than a story about wolves, but the second time I watched it I saw myself as the wolf. I have experienced the same thing. When I heard the man say the wolf would probably never know its true nature I realized why I have felt so confused all my life. I was not who I thought I was. He said the wolf would lie around and you could see her and tell that she was very confused, unhappy and lost. This is how I have always felt, like lying around the yard not knowing what to do and when I did do something I did not like it. I was not happy. I knew then without a doubt that I am spirit and I was going to find my true nature. I am what keeps the body alive and I have to remember who I am, who my real father is. I could see what happened to me, the same as what I always heard about wild animals turning on their masters sooner or later because they return to their nature. No, it is not that at all. The animal is just unhappy because it’s not its self, its true nature, and the farther it gets away the unhappier it becomes, the angrier it becomes. It is because the animal believes it is a human. This is the same problem we have as humans–we think and believe we are human when we are really spirit but we do not know that we are. All my life I felt different from others. I felt I don’t like them, I don’t belong here, I need to go somewhere, do something. I felt as if I were dropped off here and I am not from here, no one is like I am. The older I got, the further away I got from my true nature, and the anger and resentment grew inside of me because I did not like myself. The anger and resentment started coming out more and more, and I would lose control and blame others for pushing my button. The angrier I felt, the less I wanted to live, and I began to cover these feelings up with drugs, alcohol, sex and money. Nothing helped me–it only covered up my problem for a short time and then it was back the next day and growing bigger. People around me, my family and my friends could see this happening to me. Little did they know that the same thing was happening to them. They could not see it in themselves but had no problem seeing it in everybody else! It was not until I was locked up that I saw it in so many others and I could see that there was something wrong with me. I had been taught all my life that I was human, just as the wolf was raised human. The wolf never saw or learned anything about a wolf, and it would be hard to teach her that she is a wolf after raising her to be a domesticated pet. She was not allowed to be her true nature and was truly trapped within herself. This is the same thing that happened to me. I was trapped, imprisoned within myself. Sure, you can say we are human! Then what about all this God stuff? We are human, we are spirit, and the human part dies and the spirit lives forever. Why, then, are we taught so much about human nature and nothing or very little about spirit nature?
What's really going on?
IF YOU MUST BELIEVE YOU HAVE RECEIVED YOUR DESIRE
IN ORDER TO ATTAIN IT,
THEN YOU MUST START YOUR GAME BY BELIEVING IT IS FINISHED
The game of life, like every game, is played within the framework of certain rules, and any violation of those rules carries a penalty. You and I are playing this game from morning to night, and should therefore learn its rules in order to play it well.
Ecclesiastes gives us this rule: "Even in your thought do not curse the king, or in your bed chamber curse the rich, for a bird will carry your voice or some winged creature tell the matter." And Mark gives us another, as: "Whatever you desire, believe that you have received it and you will." If you must believe you have received your desire in order to attain it, then you must start your game by believing it is finished. You must feel yourself into and partaking of your goal. And you must persist in that feeling in order to achieve it.
Now, another rule is said in this manner: "Cast your bread upon the water and you will find it after many days." In other words, do not be concerned as to how it is going to happen - just do it. This statement hasn’t a thing to do with doing good as the world defines the word. Jesus was a carpenter. The word means one who produces from seed - as a flower, a tree, the earth.
The prophecy of the Old Testament is the seed which a carpenter called Jesus brings to birth. He comes not to abolish the law and the prophets but to fulfill them.
The word, “bread” in the statement: "Cast your bread upon the waters," means to devour; to consume. Water is a euphemism for semen, that living water which carries the sperm of man. The creative act is psychological, not physical; yet the intentions are the same. You must cast your bread upon the waters with passion! You must be consumed with the desire and literally on fire with love for its possession, for an intense imaginal act will always draw unto itself its own affinity.
Winston Churchill departed this world a very successful man; however, during his life he had many failures. Then one day he made this discovery, which changed his life. These are his words: "The mood decides the fortunes of people, rather than the fortunes decide the mood."
Let me put it this way: The game of life is won by those who compare their thoughts and feelings within to what appears on the outside. And the game is lost by those who do not recognize this law. Being consumed by anger, they see no change in their world. But if they would change their mood, their circumstances would change. Then they would recognize the law behind their world.
THE GAME OF LIFE
Lecture # 95 – Neville 03/07/1969
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This is a story from my book, just a little something that I helped to change in the world but it was only after I changed something that I could help change anything else.
One night I was on the phone talking to my sons, and while I was talking I watched other men walk up to the entrance way to the restroom and there was another man sitting on the three-foot wall that went through the restroom. He was at the front of the entrance and when someone would walk up, the man sitting on the wall would look at him with a mean look on his face. When they saw his face they were afraid and would turn and walk away and not enter the restroom. The man on the wall was angry and he was a homosexual. He was the nicest man that there could be, but when he wanted to or when he wasn’t feeling nice he was the meanest and baddest man in the unit. These men were so afraid that they would change their mind about going to the restroom. When I got off the phone, I walked over and sat down beside this mad man, or this nice man who thought he was a mad man. He turned and looked at me and what a face! It looked like a pressure cooker that could explode at any time. I knew he was not a pressure cooker, so I said, “What’s up, man?” He said, “I’m mad!” I saw through him and I said, “I know you are. What made you mad? Maybe I can help you.” He said, “They made me mad and I am going to whip them.” I said, “I’ll help you. Who are they?” He said, “The guards.” I said, “Man, the guards...I know you can whip some guards and I can too, but, man, we will not win in the end, and I don’t want to see you get hurt because you are too nice of a person and you don’t deserve it. How did they make you mad?” And he went on with the story about how they made him mad. I told him I would not let the guards know they made me mad. I was trying to tell him in a nice way that the only way he could be mad was to feed the thought: “I am mad, they made me mad…” Then I just sat and listened to him, really listened to him. As he talked about it I could see the pressure being released. The next thing I knew the nice man was back and we were sitting there talking and laughing and smiling. We walked into the barracks and the other men did not know what to think about what had just happened. What an experience this was for me. I was learning to see through people and see the real person. See anger for what it really is and not to accept things the way they appear unless it’s what I want. In the New Testament it says “Judge not by appearances…” (John 7:24) Everything that I have been learning is in the Bible. Paul wrote “God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind,” (2 Timothy 1:7) and Job said, “The thing which I greatly feared is come upon me, and that which I was afraid of is come unto me.” (Job 3:25) Now this man was full of fear, but I refused to see him as fear: instead I saw him as a loving being, and this is what got off the wall and walked away, leaving the fearful being sitting on the wall. Most people will turn and run the other way when they see a man that is hurting or angry. The only man you will see going up to a mad man is another mad man. People run around talking about God, how God created everything, even the devil. How God has power over the devil and the devil cannot hurt you unless you allow him to, and then every time they think they see the devil, they run the other way. My question is, if a person really believes in God, can he run from the devil?
When we transform our thoughts or emotions we raise our vibrations. When we raise our own vibrations we lift the world. Every day we are given opportunities to exercise our spiritual muscles in this way. Does anyone have any experiences they would like to share in how or what they overcame today?
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you are very wise light being of pure beauty.when we just say hi to a total stranger that we seen in our day,it makes a very big connection.one first off in the age that we are living in is the age of loniness.most are to busy to say hi or they are afraid to.we have built imaginary walls around ourselves and we pretend everything is okay when it is not.so when you say hi to a total stranger you are showing them that hey i see you and wish you a good day.it makes a big difference.they will see that they are not alone like they thought.so i encourage all of us to try to say hi to everyone we see and say have a great day,because after all they are you and you are them.we are all one.
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