THE TRUTH
OF MY WORLD


I feel as if I have returned home by happening upon this site. A welcome soft pillow after laying my head upon the stones of the dry river bed.

I am 40 something and have lived a selfish life filled with bitterness and hatred, lost in a dark and terrifying hole forever doomed to repeat my trips, falls and selfish thoughts and life.....largely speaking a wasted life?

This last year has been spent learning to love mankind for all his faults and to feel compassion for my fellow man and not to be filled with arrogant disdain and disregard for him. Ridding myself of old belief systems stepping out of the self imposed hell of hatred and into...........light.

I have come a long way this last year out of the black frightening hole of despair and hatred, I can feel the light burrowing into all the tiniest of creases within my soul; kicking and chasing out the hate and the dark that has consumed me on this plane of existence for the last 40 and more years.

I have come here:
to learn
to love
to share
to enlighten and be enlightened
to forgive and be forgiven
to cleanse
to feel
to grow
to find purpose
to understand
to give and expect nothing in return

To free my soul and my spirit from all that has bound me before so that I may soar with others and share the beauty that I know is within me that has been crying to be let out but so long ignored, to become one with others through sharing.

This journey is going to be one filled with light, love hope, sharing and joy and I am looking forward to every moment of it one small step at a time, one small spark of light and wonder at a time, each spark joining another; growing till the flame is big, bright, strong and steady; then it will grow some more; enabling greater sharing and giving to others.