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On October 27, 2009, we had our first R.Y.S.A. Day -- Read Your Stories Aloud -- Day on blog talk radio. This will recur every last Tuesday of the month on Artists and Ascension at 5pm Eastern. The participants are looking at this as a useful exercise on several levels, namely, writing our stories if we haven't already, and sharing them in a public space as a way to communicate our experiences to others, as well as move through our fears of sharing publicly. We invite you to read about how it was for us, and for those who have shared, to please write about what it was like for you. We hope that this sharing will encourage others to take the plunge in communicating and the subsequent feeling of communion that results. | ||
| From Nanineko | From aingealsoul |
| To write about one’s experience is to be self-reflective, the observer of one’s own experience. You have the sense of being inside the experience, yet outside as well. This sense of being two places at once is helpful in becoming multidimensional. Expressing the inner world to the outer world adds to its power, gives it a credence and a validity, and makes us more real. Writing about my awakening experience, an event that took place long ago, serve to give it an external reality, so that it existed outside of myself as well as in the memory bank of my mind. Still, I had never read it aloud before. I didn’t realize how nervous I would be, how much anxiety it would cause me beforehand. I tried practicing it before we aired on blog talk radio, but somehow I could never make it to the end. I kept having to stop. Yet that was okay. My reading was fine on the show. I just gave myself over to it and went with the flow. The strange thing about it is that I have been having a result I did not expect at all – new insights into my awakening experiences. New insights, after all these years. It is as if by sharing in that public way, I was letting go of it, thereby allowing new insights to pour through. I have had two major awakenings, or initiatory experiences, both completely life-altering. The process of sharing brought them front and center again, making them feel immediate again. I find myself re-processing them again. Not in the sense of making any new connections, as I have gone over them so many times I don’t see that it would be possible to make any MORE connections… but all the same, I feel I am coming to a new understanding of their meaning and significance, especially as I have been reading other people’s awakening experiences both here on the Gold Ring and in a couple of books purchased on Amazon. By the way, there are not many books published about awakening experiences. I would dearly love to see this become a new genre. But we have to keep writing, keep sharing, keep telling each other our stories, making it real, and making ourselves more real in the process. If I tell you how and when I woke up, don’t you feel like you wake up a little bit more with me? That is how I feel about you. That when we share our stories together, we are acknowledging ourselves as souls, just that little bit more than we were before. From Anglevoices To Nanineko I found some common areas between your story and mine... and probably many other stories we're going to hear also. It all starts when we reach an emotional low where reason and reality seem blurred and we feel so alone. That's when the tears come out. To get through this we release control of the situation, have total acceptance of whatever will happen and put it in the hands of the Divine. Then there's an expansion of knowledge where all our questions have been answered and we have this ability to access a communal bank of human consciousness. Suddenly all knowledge seems to be shared with us through some Divine gift. It's at that point where the enormity of the Universe and our oneness in it becomes a humbling and overwhelming feeling that fills us with this spiritual bliss as we finally understand what unconditional love really is. In coming down from this state, everything around us looks different because we're seeing it for the first time through different eyes. I know the feeling so well and as you read your story, I was right there too. I think all of our stories will take us through these same feelings, some more eloquently than others. I feel like your "stories of awakening" idea is the perfect first step in sharing the details and finding a higher level of comfort and openness. Writing it down makes it more real and helps in the acceptance process so that's the best way for me to rely the story on Goldring. I know spoken words make it more real to the listener, but I'm not there yet. It's a very complicated task to face one's fears and let the light in. I find it to be very true the way you describe childhood dreams colliding with the expectations of adults. That's exactly what acceptance is all about. Rethinking and relearning a lifetime of beliefs that were taught to be true... yet we now know there's a whole other perspective out there. We're now faced with a second reality which replaces the first. It's just like becoming an infant again and learning how to crawl for the first time or taking one's first steps. The excitement is the same, but the sense of learning and awe is magnified a million times because our adult intellect can better grasp the magnitude of what's happening. That's what awakening is all about. Conversation (on Skype) between Nanineko and Truthsleuth Nancy Wait ~ Nanineko: Well, bravo to you for making the effort, John. Hopefully you will inspire others who are not actually writers, to get going as well. Which is why it would be great -- when you get around to it -- to write a bit about what this experience is and has been, like for you..... know what I mean? Presuming it's been valuable, I mean.... TruthSleuth/john: Well Nancy You're Right About It being Valuable, Although I Didn't Realize It All That Soon, As Days Went By, I Think It's Value Was Apparent, As I Have Been Drawn Back To A Point In My Life Some 35 Years Ago, And Now I Feel (Unless I'm Mistaken) That I Am Seeing Thing With Much Better Perspective Today. There's Alot Of Power In Writing Things Down. Most People Know This To Be True. Well, What Could Be Of More Value Than Setting About To Write Down Your Life's Experiences, All With An Eye Towards Gaining Better Perspective And Reflection On Your Life's Current Landscapes And Direction. Hope You (sun) (F) (h) Nancy Wait ~ Nanineko: Wonderful thoughts, wonderful words.... I may use you in a Testimonial :D I'm culling together a piece about the value of stories/writing down our stories. Should be ready by next week when I feel the time is right to form a FB group. I'll keep you updated on it... TruthSleuth/john: Wow! Sure...You're Certainly Welcome To! Sounds Great About The FB Group Too! It's Really Beautiful...All the Nice Work That You're Doing Here. I'd Certainly Love To Be A Part Of It Too! :) Nancy Wait ~ Nanineko: Well, keep writing... and you ARE a part of it. Writing our stories is a form of spiritual discipline like yoga or meditation. That's how I see it. The rewards are incalculable... as in...."Know Thyself" --- what could be better than THAT TruthSleuth/john: When We seek Always To Inspire, We Are Then Able To Soar Higher (sun) Nancy Wait ~ Nanineko: Nice One! Did you Twitter that? You should.... :) Nancy Wait ~ Nanineko: Ok, go write! (F) TruthSleuth/john: Thanks Nancy! Ahhh You're So "Write"! I Will Then DO THAT! Thanks For Your Help And Encouragement Here, As It's Likely It's Helped Me Too! :) | Recently, my path has crossed with that of a wonderful and dear soul. Through her support and encouragement, I have once more begun to do something that has always spoken to my heart. I am writing again. Ever since I was a child, I have loved writing for the sheer joy of watching my imagination manifest upon the page. In addition to this, however, she has encouraged me to write my memoirs; to speak to others of my journey as Spirit. It was not until most recently, through discussions that we’ve had had together that I have come to believe that I really have anything to offer as a memoir writer. Why would anyone wish to hear of my personal trials and tribulations? After all, there are others out there with much more amazing stories than my own; others who have been through a great deal more than I. What could I possibly have to offer? She pointed out to me that everyone’s journey is unique. No one person awakens to one’s self in the very same way. As individuations of Spirit; of Source, each of us is tasked with experiencing life through our own perspective. While it is true that many of us experience situations that are similar, no two people experience it in the same manner. Even two people who watch as an accident occurs, will see it in a different way. So, with all of this in mind, why would there not be anything to be learned from another’s shared experiences? Even my own? In addition to this, there is the need to address the Shadow… Each of us have experienced hurts and other emotional pains, in one form of another. Each of us has, at one time or another, experienced ourselves as someone that we would rather not have been. This is the face we hide away from the light of day, even from those that we encounter on a daily basis. This is our Shadow. Some will call it Ego, and many schools of thought will encourage us to destroy it. They paint it as bad thing, something very undesirable. Generally speaking, the traits that are attributed to Ego are those things that form the Shadow. Do not dwell in the past, we are told, and to a degree, I would have to agree with this way of thinking. All that exists is Now. This moment in time. Yesterday is a Now in the past. While tomorrow will be our Now once it arrives. All of this is true to my way of thinking, but it has also become my belief that the experiences that have assisted in creating the Shadow still need to be addressed. Not for the purpose of allowing it to cause us further harm, rather for the purpose of healing the wounds that are caused by these experiences. Much like a physical wound, if left untreated, they will fester, abscess. Yet, the resulting manifestation within our life is not always apparent or forthright. Instead, it seems to appear in our lives in unexpected ways. Not only in the manner that we react to situations, but in the ways that we approach them. “That’s all very noble, but you’re an untrained writer. You’ve never even gone beyond your high school writing classes. How could you possibly expect to go anywhere with your writing, whether it be your memoirs or fiction?” A wonderful example of those things that my own personal Shadow would have me believe. Now. Can you hear that? It’s the sound of the door to the soundproof booth I’ve started keeping my Inner Critic in being shut once more. Each of us has one. It’s Shadow manifesting as one who offers our most scathing bits of criticism and will go for the jugular, if we allow it to. Within the Inner Critic is stored all of the recordings that each of us adopts along our journey. You know the ones that I refer to; the ones that say any number of things. You’re not good enough. You’re not talented enough. You’re not pretty enough. It takes all of them and expands upon them. No one could possibly want to hear what you have to say. You haven’t experienced enough. You’re too young. Your writing sucks! The latter happens to be one of my personal ‘favorites’; one that I’ve heard many a time myself. The biggest reason, though, I can think of for my doing this is so that I may regain and retain for my own, all the personal power that I have and do give to others. Think of it. Think how much power we truly give another by allowing them to convince us that we are something akin to being insignificant. Each time we allow one or more messages to control our actions, we are giving the individual or individuals who first instilled that fear in us as much power over our being as we did in the first instance. Fear is an extremely effective tool in affecting control or dominance over another and one that the Ego/Shadow/Inner Critic utilizes often. It is true the things that will prevent us from doing something important to us will quite often seem reasonable at the time. I don’t have the time. I have too many more important things to do. I don’t have the money. The list could go on and on and on, but in reality, they are nothing more than situations that manifest as a result of our inner resistance; our fear. We wouldn’t, after all, desire to admit our fears, our vulnerability to anyone. So we do our best to hide it through excuses. Better to save face than to actually admit that we’re afraid, right? So… when someone asks why I write; why I bother writing about my sometimes long and arduous journey or, even, the worlds and people that form in my mind, these days I can honestly say that I do it for no one else but me. If someone else gets something out of it, whether it be pleasure in the tales I weave or reassurance that they are not alone in their journey, I am sincerely glad to discover this. But, in all honesty, it is only a by-product of the personal work that I, myself, am doing to reach my greater goal. “And what might that goal be?” you ask. To be the brightest of lights in this existence that I possibly can become while still remaining within this incarnation. To become my True and Authentic Self, warts and all. By doing so, I’m actually helping the Whole, and if I can do it… anyone else can, too. |
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